I wanna commit suicide.?

i am one five years old and i am tired of life im tired of getting abused tired of mom and dad fighting tired of not feeling love i wanna do good in my life i make straight A gradesa all pre ap but and wanna be a ors spine surgeon but no one seems to care they care more bout drugs so i have attempted to kill myself but sum stranger pulled me away seconds before an on comming 18 wheeler hit me. i am just tired of everything and i have horribile nightmares at night about me killing myself so i dont know what to do i think i shud just take my life heres a pic of me incase you see me on the news http://i1181.photobucket.com/albums/x434/lopezmark4991/1a.jpg